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Forgiveness and Trust

I struggle with fickleness. With people I have major trust issues, with life circumstances I'm swift to assume a pestilence from God. This makes me a bit slimy I suppose. For example, my faith - I don't always profess to be a Christian in real life or online, because I have trauma related to the… Continue reading Forgiveness and Trust

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Unlearning Internalized Ableism

While writing my book, Wedding Planning for Spoonies, I realized how ableist I was despite having a disability. Even the subtitle of the OG cover shows that. I have had a debilitating mental health disorder for 17 years, and chronic pain for 1 followed by extreme GI issues for 4. Each night I would vomit.… Continue reading Unlearning Internalized Ableism

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Persistence

You know those pain flares when you end up crying? Yeah, I just pulled through one of those. I think it was the Saharan dust storm. But I don't want to just complain. It's more of an explanation of why I've been gone for so long, in case anyone noticed. I became a Super Contributor… Continue reading Persistence

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Trust Issues

My husband and I are working towards reuniting, and I've been opening up to him about issues I have with myself. One is that as far back as I can remember, I never felt deserving of love, not even my mother's. He asked if that was why I had trust issues. I said yes. We… Continue reading Trust Issues

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Green Tea Foot Soak to Reduce Swelling & Edema

As an experiment for my DIY home spa, I wanted to shake things up a bit for my foot soaks. A few of you know I have edema and swelling in my legs and feet. Green tea is anti-inflammatory, and I wondered that if I soaked my feet in a giant Tupperware of green tea,… Continue reading Green Tea Foot Soak to Reduce Swelling & Edema

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Sometimes people are stupid, and that’s OK

Everybody has an evil little voice in their head that tells them they're a piece of shit, or that something nice that happened to them was really sinister, or a good friend is out to get them. Many people name their evil little voice. I never have, but lately I've been thinking "anaconda" or "Brenda."… Continue reading Sometimes people are stupid, and that’s OK

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My Psych Meds Are Literally Killing Me

Image by Arek Socha from Pixabay My psych meds are literally killing me... and I can't get off of them. Yet. I have medically-induced lupus, which can be cured once the person is off the medication that is the culprit. However, each time I've tried to taper off, something insane has happened. Running away from… Continue reading My Psych Meds Are Literally Killing Me

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SAS Shoes Review – Cozy Slide Sandal

I have been taking steroids in order to walk around without a mobility aid. Somehow I can get up at 6AM and do yoga, but after that I have difficulty moving. A big problem is that my legs and feet are as big as water balloons. They constantly itch and burn, and it’s hard to… Continue reading SAS Shoes Review – Cozy Slide Sandal

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Self-Care For Fibromyalgia

I've been off the internet for a while trying to figure out good ways to care for myself as I went through my latest pain flare and manic episode. With the help of my EMDR therapist, I came up with a daily routine, scheduled by the hour, for about 4 different tasks I could do,… Continue reading Self-Care For Fibromyalgia