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Post-Wedding Depression is Real

When I first became engaged to my husband, I ordered all the wedding books, researched, and meticulously planned until I ended up in the ER with nerve damage. I was also pulled in all sorts of directions by my in-laws and family, who paid for the event. My planning season was an emotional rollercoaster, but… Continue reading Post-Wedding Depression is Real

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Self-Care For Fibromyalgia

I've been off the internet for a while trying to figure out good ways to care for myself as I went through my latest pain flare and manic episode. With the help of my EMDR therapist, I came up with a daily routine, scheduled by the hour, for about 4 different tasks I could do,… Continue reading Self-Care For Fibromyalgia

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Why Body Positivity is So Hard For Chronically Ill Women

I had my first EMDR session yesterday, and it went... badly. In EMDR one of the first things you do is create a safe space for yourself, and I could not visualize myself as I am in that space. I kept seeing the old me, the beautiful former model me, and I began to sob.… Continue reading Why Body Positivity is So Hard For Chronically Ill Women

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The book of love

It’s almost a month left until my wonderful, creekside spoonie wedding, and I’m left with some thoughts. Photo credit: Tauni Joy photography Communication is hard. Love is hard. It can be scary. Love is a literal battlefield, but as long as you and your partner are on the same team fighting for each other, it’s… Continue reading The book of love

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Beauty can come late

I have a jar of wilted roses in front of my happy light. It’s a wonder my office doesn’t smell like roasted roses, because the happy light has been on for about 12 hours. By the way, a happy light is artificial sunlight, and if you don’t turn it off after 30 minutes, it can… Continue reading Beauty can come late

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Fibromyalgia pain and loving yourself

Your fibromyalgia body still loves you. Please love it back. After pushing myself hard last week, I found myself in a fibromyalgia pain flare. Thankfully it lasted about 6 hours instead of a few days, at least that I can tell. Fibromyalgia is pesky in that it’s nearly impossible to tell how it will jump… Continue reading Fibromyalgia pain and loving yourself