Everybody has an evil little voice in their head that tells them they're a piece of shit, or that something nice that happened to them was really sinister, or a good friend is out to get them. Many people name their evil little voice. I never have, but lately I've been thinking "anaconda" or "Brenda."… Continue reading Sometimes people are stupid, and that’s OK
It’s time for book talk! I’m back to almost 20,000 words after getting the book down to 16,000. That’s quite a feat for a week. And now I have this adorable cover! It probably is a bit cisgender - but I wanted the rainbow background for a reason. Please give me some #feedback for fun!… Continue reading Wedding Planning For Spoonies: Now With Actual Spoons! 🥄
On zoom a very good friend of mine and I have a bible study for just the two of us almost every day. It’s a good way to keep connected, learn more about ourselves, each other, and Jesus. Right now we are studying Philippians and one of the last questions for the study yesterday was… Continue reading Hebrews 1:3
Lately I’ve been getting up at 11pm, 1am, or most recently, 2am, and despite my best efforts, have been unable to fall back asleep. I’ve tried everything from meditation, medication, to alcohol, and I still can’t nod off. Unfortunately I tend to do stupid and impulsive things at night, especially just before dawn. I’ve compiled… Continue reading How to Survive a Night of Insomnia
There are two things I've always wanted: a tiny house on some land and a bunch of dogs. A refuge away from the world where I could have snuggles, nature, and grow my own things from the earth.
Whether you make it to your destination or not, I'd say your Monday morning commute is thankful for you. Negative experiences - or experiences we think are negative - are grateful for you because they get to serve their positive purpose: to allow illumination in their darkness.
I'm going through one of the worst pain flares I've ever been through. What I mean to say is, for anyone else going through this, don't give up, or as my favorite band Weezer would say, Keep Fishin'.
I wasn't sure what to write about today. I woke up at 2:00AM in extreme pain, but that's okay. It went away eventually and I fell back asleep. As I erroneously look forward in my life, ever playing the fortune teller, I see black clouds hanging ahead. But I know that this is false thinking,… Continue reading It’s OK
I notice a trend in my life, in other blogger's lives, and in human beings in general. It's of helplessness and hopelessness: being a victim of who you are and your circumstances.As for me, I admit I fall into the power trap as we all do at times. Sometimes I curse my pain and how I have no control. We may not have a say in the hands we're dealt, but we can learn how to play them.
Dealing with the specific tragedy of this week has taken up the forefront of my body and all of my mind, which is why I haven't been posting much this week. Typically I try to post something everyday. But there's something that helps ground me when everything sends me flying internally: Gratitude.